November 2012
25 posts
I think its time for me to grow the fuck up and get my shit together.
Raisin cookies that look like chocolate chip cookies. this is why I have trust isses.
I want you to disappear, and I want myself to get away from that whole clique of yours. Can you just like stop talking to me. It’d be nice , thanks.
If you wanna have a decent conversation with me, just make an effort. I’m not gonna be a bitch and ignore you. I’d respect the fact that you hit me up to see how i’m doing but if you want a conversation then make it a conversation. Don’t just reply “lol” or “k” I’m not gonna talk to you if you dont put in effort. Might as well say bye if you...
I can’t keep doing this to myself, I’m hurting myself and it’s not right, I gotta stop all this.
I’m so fucking tired of all this crap, why am I doing this shit to myself.
Im done with your shit, I’m not gonna think about you anymore. you aint one of my priorities.
Thanks for putting me on blast,
You haven’t been there for me lately and all of a sudden you talk to me like you know everything. Then say rude shit..? I guess you got a sense of humor, but it crosses the line at times.
You’re just like the rest of them lol. I thought you’d be different, guess I was wrong.
If you’re not taking me serious, please don’t talk to me. The more I talk to you the more I like you, and the more I like you.. I might fall for you. It took so long to build up a front to hold myself up but you can tear me down like its nothing. You’re different from my past guys, I guess but you’re so different that you’re the same as them.
I don’t need you when I’ve got myself.
Two can be just bad as one.
21 Questions.
Who am I? Why am I doing this to myself? Why was I so stupid? What the fuck am I doing? What am I living for? Why did I let myself go? So many questions to ask myself, but none to ask you.
I think I like you.
School.
I’m not a good student & that’s a given. I’ve always been a bad student, no lie when I say always. The more I try the faster I give up. I can’t get a hold of my school shit, i’m just scared to see myself end up at hare. That’s the last place I want to see myself at. I promised that I’d never go there but I’m on the edge and I’m so close to...
Shit. I better not grow feelings for you.
If you are mad at me just tell me, if you just give me the silent treatment , don’t expect me to ask you what’s up. I don’t bother with little things. If you never keep me updated with what’s up I wont really care lol.
Your bullshit vs. mine.
Don’t blame me, when you do the exact same thing. fucking hypocrite.
So many things you’re doing are pissing me the fuck off.
It’s scary how small the world is.
You are an asshole,
You know , I actually believed you and you put me down. It’s not cool how you were an asshole to me but now to my friend too. Fuck you. Why can’t you be less selfish.
Have I changed? Sure, who doesn’t change. Don’t tell me who you are, is who you’ve been for the past 5 years..that shit cray. Who you are, is who you are, I make everything I do , me. I do me not for them niggas out there that hate what I am capable of. I’m not bringing myself as low as they are just so I can get the taste of revenge. I have pride , &I’m not gonna...
Its mind over matter right ? I dont mind cause you don’t matter.
Honestly, If you don’t care about me. I won’t care anymore, I could careless and give two fuck about someone who doesn’t care about me. Why should I worry about someone who doesn’t give a shit about what happens to me. I’m not stupid enough to stick around and be your bitch. toodles nigga
It’s so hard for me to make you understand where I’m coming from. When I say something , you’ll just turn the table on me. Why can’t you be understanding or reasonable, what the fucking fuck is wrong with you.
October 2012
9 posts
I guess I'm stupid.
I can’t see that I deserve better, when everyone tells me that I can do better but no matter what I still can’t leave us alone. You’re not a bad person, and I am probably more likely to be the wrong person for you. It’s whatevers now, it’s been over but I swear I still feel like we never decided to leave each other. I feel like I owe you an apology for what I did....
I think there’s always a little part of myself that caves in when I see you.
Me: So is it okay if I lie to you?
Mom: No, I'll be mad.
Me: You suck balls mom.
Mom: I dont suck 'his' balls anymore. What are you talking about?
Me& Varden: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTF!!!!!
Been a tiring ass week, damn. I hope all that I worked hard for pays off. I’ll be pissed if it’s all for nothing.
F U C K F U C K F U C K F U C K F U C K.
I cuss too much even though it’s not needed at all. It’s a habit, I’m so used to talking like that and I tend to go over lines with it but I’ll try and hold back all my fucks,shits,and craps but It’s hard to break habits. Trying to reflect on yourself and try to make yourself into a decent person is pretty hard. So give me kudos for attempting.
Don’t give me half-assed crap. I’m not gonna let you lie to my face, and get away with it. So heres a message to those who like to stalk my shit and what nots. Don’t expect me to forgive you once you’ve lied to my face. I know at times I’ll let it slip but once I am on your ass about it … You a fucked nigga. Aight, capiche ?
In with the good, out with the bad.
“Drink all my stress and pain away.”
You can say that it’s an excuse to do stupid shit and it could be a legit reason to do that crap, but honestly I am so fucking tired of all the bullshit I have to deal with. I wouldn’t mind being drunk 24/7 cause I wouldn’t be sober enough to deal with all the crap I put up with anyways. The sober words of a drunken person.
Fuck this shit.
I need to stop. What the fuck am I doing ? It’s not fucking worth it. I need to fucking forget about it, why is the thought of it still going through my mind ? I shouldn’t even be thinking about it.
